Not Pregnant
I woke up last night and stared into the darkness, tears running down my face. I knew, I felt that I was not pregnant.Nothing happened - there was no blood, no blood test, no HPT and yet I knew.
Mr Optimist is away and still does not know. Samsi knew - she licked my tears and snuggled in the crook of my arm.
posted by snowhite @ 1:39 PM
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I know what you mean - these little ephanies come in the dead of the night and it's hard to explain them logically. I hope you're wrong, but I know how often they're right.
You mentioned you had a luteal phase problem - I don't know if it's the same as what I'm having or not. Mine's only started since IVF and seems (to my mind) to be a result of the drugs mucking up my cycle. Actually, I might answer in more detail on my own blog...
At any rate, I was going to ask what the problem/treatments were with you?
Bea
Hi Bea,
Good to see you here - I am avid reader of your blog!
My LP problem has been spotting, usually ~5 days before actual pperiod. Spotting has always been brown and coaggulated (sorry tmi) and initally we thought that it might be one of endo symptoms. However, even after endo was removed the spotting is still there. It is controlled (up to a point) by progesternone pessaries, but I still usually start spotting before BT.
Part of the frustration is that we don't really know what our problem is. After 4 failed IUIs and failed fresh IVF#1 (not BT yet, but I am so sure that I don't really need one) I am pretty sure that we will never knw what is actually wrong. I have this odd feeling that something is not just right with my body (yes, sounds pretty bloody obvious). I am getting so desparate that I am even looking into herbs et al. Now, a year or so ago I would hve diagnosed myself as mad just on the basis of that thought. Ahhh, enough ranting...
Anyway, I am really glad that you visit this place sometimes and will keep reading about your travels through this damned infertility land.
Hmmm... interesting to compare notes. I was reading about how there is often no discernable reason (I hate when medicine gets like that).
What has your FS told you about how it affects your chances of pregnancy?
Bea
No reason for spotting between periods, that is.
Bea
Hey Bea,
My FS does not think that spotting itself is causing much trouble. So, we still don't know what our problem really is. To me it looks like a collection of 'smaller' problems - my endo, his borderline morphology... Then there is history of endometrial polyp on my side. But, I guess I no longer have to know what is wrong, I just want to get pg!
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